Rachel!

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breakfast idea

new recipe i made up yesterday that i just loved.

Take a belgian waffle, throw confectionary sugar over it. Put your favorite fruit or berries on top. Then cover it with granola, and syrup. mmmm. yummy!

Philly Love Statue

challenge me, go ahead, i dare you!

ok, so i definitely overreacted.

i'm totally up to the challenge.
i feel much better about it.

i can do this! i didn't go to school for 2 years for nothing. i know enough. it may not be everything, but it's something, damnit.
stupid KP scaring us to death! how silly of me!
i know that i know, even if she doesn't know that i know. :) (that was for you j)

i'm fucked

i'm fucked. i don't know anything!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm going to be a terrible nurse.
if i even make it to be a nurse. i'll probably fail my boards first.

penguins

i like penguins. :)
hmn.

ansy

i've never felt so ansy in all my life.

i'm ready to leave. i want to move on. my purpose here in this stage of my life is fulfilled.

maybe the reason i seem so eager to grow up and do everything right away is because i so desperately need to move on from here. i need a new kind of stimulation or challenge. i need a change of scenery. i need something new. and i need it now. i'm bored with this lifestyle. with my schedule. with this school. i've done it long enough now. i've gotten enough of it. i'm so unbelievably restless i can barely stand it. like a little kid that can't sit still. i've done everything i wanted to do here, i got out of it what i had hoped to, and i'm done now. please let this just be done.

i need a change so badly. and if you know me at all, you know that i never say that type of thing.

maybe i've grown up this year or something. maybe i've adjusted to the idea of change and moving around. maybe i've finally overcome my fear of change. i dont' know what it is, but whatever it is, i think it's a good thing. i think i've really moved past some things that were obstacles for me. i'm like a different person. i'm not afraid. i'm not afraid to try something new, i feel like i have to. i feel like one of those kids in school who's completely bored with what they're doing so they find other alternative ways to entertain themselves. or they get sent to a challenging reading group or something. i believe that i too require supplementation. because i'm not being challenged. i'm not excited here. i'm done with it. period. i'm over it.


this scares me, in a way. because lately i've noticed i've been doing this with a lot of things. i am such a curious person that i am obsessed with something like, understanding how it works, or what something means, or whatever it may be, and as soon as i've gotten a clear enough picture of it in my mind, to my satisfaction, i move onto the next big question. and i'm totally over the first one. it's onto the next fascinating thing. i wonder if any of that has to do with my adhd. it might. i don't know. i'm just one of those people that like, wants to know everything. so i don't like to stick around in something i already know. i do but i don't. i get bored easily. it's like this clinic we've been going to for clinical. i was ALL about it. for a day. until i got all of my questions answered, and i saw as much as i could possibly see there. unfortunately, i still had 2 more weeks there. when a day or 2 was enough for me. i don't know....i'm a person who likes to see a lot. not just be stagnant in some place. i'm not the type of person that's going to work in a clinic FOREVER. i'd get too bored. i need to be doing lots of different things i've discovered. i need to constantly be challenged, i need to constantly be seeing new things, i need to constantly ask questions and then search for their answers.
lord help me. what am i going to do. that's not conducive to a real life grown up job.
i'm basically just a big kid. it's just not realistic i guess.



but regardless, unfortunately i'm stuck here. :graduation can't come soon enough....

changes

It's amazing how all of a sudden your whole world can get shaken up out of nowhere.
How everything can change in a flash.
How your whole future can be threatened in an instant.



The only thing I can say is, I'm incredibly grateful to have someone so supportive and loving in my life. I can't imagine what it'd be like without that at the time when you need it most.

music

there are few things in this world that are more powerful to me than music

i'd be lost without it

check out my boyfriend's band...they kick ass...www.myspace.com/quillmusic

i think this says it all...

Sigmund Rocks.